Why do people doubt they are loved? Is pure silliness!
you know...that's a really good question. unfortunately, i don't think it will ever be answered. for me...i don't know. it's not that i ever doubted that i was loved by you guys, i just felt (more than anything) that i had nothing to offer. that i had no real place here. a lot of that was based off of my fic. which one should never EVER do, but it's hard not to do. especially in this fandom. for god's sake, you HAVE to write for yourself if you choose to venture into HP. it's never said to your face, but sometimes, your worth is based off of your fame. if you have it or not. it sounds silly and ridiculous. and it is silly and ridiculous, but that's just how the cookie crumbles. and it effects some people harder than it does others. you can't dicatae emotions. and if you feel that you're not worth anything because of fic...then what's the point of staying? i just realized that i have to do all of this for me, like i said in my post today. i'm the only one that matters. i can't speak for FM, but i know bits and pieces of what happened while i was gone, so i have a good idea of what may caused this reaction. but then again, i could be completely off. all i know, is that she has to look within herself and find the strength to remember that it's only about her happiness here. and if she can deal with the fuckery of fandom, then she will eventually be happy again.
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you know...that's a really good question. unfortunately, i don't think it will ever be answered. for me...i don't know. it's not that i ever doubted that i was loved by you guys, i just felt (more than anything) that i had nothing to offer. that i had no real place here. a lot of that was based off of my fic. which one should never EVER do, but it's hard not to do. especially in this fandom. for god's sake, you HAVE to write for yourself if you choose to venture into HP. it's never said to your face, but sometimes, your worth is based off of your fame. if you have it or not. it sounds silly and ridiculous. and it is silly and ridiculous, but that's just how the cookie crumbles. and it effects some people harder than it does others. you can't dicatae emotions. and if you feel that you're not worth anything because of fic...then what's the point of staying? i just realized that i have to do all of this for me, like i said in my post today. i'm the only one that matters. i can't speak for FM, but i know bits and pieces of what happened while i was gone, so i have a good idea of what may caused this reaction. but then again, i could be completely off. all i know, is that she has to look within herself and find the strength to remember that it's only about her happiness here. and if she can deal with the fuckery of fandom, then she will eventually be happy again.
/end ramble...stupid champagne.