Brammers! I finally got around to read your awesome R/S for the darkfest. Oh, what a sweet and tragic "backstory" to the HP-series, knowing of course all the while, how this would and had to end. I found the foreknowledge especially hard to take, seeing all of this through Sirius's eyes, who was so not seeing it coming. I adore you first-person narrator Sirius, his coolness, his youth, his arrogance, his bravado. For some reason I always thought Remus/Sirius slash would inevitably type-cast Sirius as the "top" and Remus as the "bottom" - I loved the strength (physical and emotional) you gave Remus in this story, making him vulnerable without having him be the victim to his werewolf nature. The plot device you used - the later Sirius' knowlegde of the unnamed traitor - was extremely well done. You had me wonderung numerous times whether you were going AU with this story, having Remus be in fact a traitor, against his will, perhaps. I love the understated way you portrayed Peter's role in the Marauder's Quartet, "the short one" with his "practical" choice for an Animagus form. It really was hard to read Remus' praise Peter for "not compensating for anything", when he was compensating for so much and so brutally later. I adore the glimpses you gave us of Mr. and Mrs. P - I was always curious about Harry's grandparents on the Potter side. And I wondered in the end, whether Remus was not equally suspecting of Sirius being the traitor. Those long hours of fucking - I got the feeling Remus was as much trying to keep Sirius as Sirius was trying to keep him. It would explain why Remus would believe so quickly that Sirius could betray and have James, Lily and Harry killed, knowing him so well, and perhaps thinking he didn't know him at all. Ah, this is major heart-break. I'd love to see your story from Remus's side of this. Thanks so much for writing this!